"Seize the day, seize whatever you can, 'cause life slips away just like hourglass sand . . ." Carolyn Arends
What a great song. I haven't celebrated this mockery of a holiday in many years. For the sheer principle of it, I have refused to participate in the commercialized day meant to make one partner feel guilty (for forgetting, of course) and spend a lot of money, and the other partner feel neglected by aforementioned forgetful partner or lonely because of the lack of a partner. I know this is a very cynical outlook of the "holiday for lovers" but hang with me for a moment as the epiphany manifests. This year was different.
One of the things that happens when you are living with and loving a partner living with ("living with, living with, living with, not dying from disease" - another great line in a song, this one from RENT) a terminal disease, is that each day could be the last. This outlook has changed my attitude about today. I am married to a hopeless romantic. I, on the other hand, am simply a hopeless cause when it comes to mush, it actually makes my eyes involuntarily role, and not in a good way. I detest Lifetime, Oxygen Network, books where girl meets boy, girl hates boy, tragedy happens, they fall in love - yada yada yada. I am happy to walk the beach alone, he loves to hold hands and stroll. I read Sci-Fi Fantasy and and enjoy the battle scenes, he would rather watch a movie on one of the previously listed television stations. This would be a good time to note that I am "Mars" and he is "Venus" and since we both know this, it works. So, this morning when he rolled over and sleepily said, "I wish we had room service", I jumped out of bed (actually jumped, too - it was a miracle that early in the morning) and made him French Toast. That's when I had my epiphany; this may be our last Valentine's Day. Being that I am unemployed (although I had a great interview Friday and have been called back for the second interview Tuesday - I digress), we will not be going to dinner tonight, nor will we be purchasing giant hearts filled with god-food, nevertheless it will be a holi-day I hold dear. Which not unlike the actual V-Day, is a victory for a patriotic man that has chosen to live yet one more day.
Next is St. Patty's day, now there is a holiday I can embrace!
"Seize the day, seize whatever you can
'Cause life slips away just like hourglass sand
Seize the day, pray for grace from God's hand
Then nothing will stand in your way
Seize the day"
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